dA tRuTh iS fInAlLy oUt

Hey bloggy,
Looks likes its u n me. It was a happening early night. I spot my long lost fren by accident(through frendster). khakha..I couldn't recognize her.
tonight for the first time in the history of ex xishanites msn, It was da most many peepz! *LOL* Everyone was confused lost..muahahaha
Half way through, my dad called...Since yesterday he was trying to talk to me. But I avoided. Today no excused. I haven been talking to my parents for weeks. He forced it out...The anger was too intense dat I just kept quiet..din look at his face. Not angry with him but...u knoe who..
Da anger and pain has lead to physical aching in my heart..The closest is my arwah atuk, who had heart problems...Could it be?... Wat ever it is, Aku pasrah kepada mu YA ALLAH....

wAt a sMaLl wOrLd

A very good Evening!
How was my day? Went running at the reservoir, got home, had some sausages, scramble eggs and bread. Then i fell half asleep (gosh i hate when dat happens). I woke up nearly noon, with a feeling dat i just had to go out. So, I showered and went to the movies. I decided only when I got dare! Watched Star Wars. Okok lah.. Dare's dis new movie to be release next month. Its a combination of harry potter and lord of the rings! Yupz, a combi of medieval times with magical stufff! Kewl! Can't wait!!! After the show I walked ard looking at people trying to make a sense of myself.
I received a mail from one of siti horriani, she told me dat my bro (same dorm while a trainee) is siti mariam's big bro!!!! *LOL* Wat a small world. Her husband was formerlly from NVSS, n i know da guy! khakhakha...Yupz, she's married and due very very sooon!
I found out a couple of my frenz are already married! One of dem just found out she's pregnant! Alhamdullilah..alhamdullilah..Rahmat dari Yang Maha Esa! I found heaps of other ex sec frenz..khekhekhe
Ya Allah, when will it be my time to hold my very own, to Azan and Qamat, the life that will carry on my bloodline...

mEnTeRa sEmErAh pAdI

A very Good and Beautiful Morning!
Just woke up to this song. A very strong and inspirational song to me. It's by M Nasir. Last night, "setelah dibelasa rindu dan kekecewaan", I thought, oh well, why not just listen to all the sad songs and get it over with. I was hoping to cry to sleep, but I think my exhaustion was far too overwhelming! *LOL*. Its a beautiful morning, I think I should go running! ;)
Peace out my frenz!

wAt a DaY

After a late lunch, I watched, Flight of Phoenix (vcd) and flew to dreamland! I knocked out actually. Woke up at 2000 thinking its morning! Wahh..
My other half of the day has been quite a challenge. Everywhere I go online I discover something new abt her..my ex that is. Its been a hearthache,guess somehow I hafta get immune to it..Using anger? *LOL*
My dad called me just now, to sit outside and talk..I have a fishy feeling and I just ignored him. Minutes later my mom came in and ask "kau dgn NBH da tak kawan lagi?" So just kept silence. I have this feeling that my dad must have seen her outside. I rather not know.
I asked ask God, if He wants to spilt me and her, why let me see all the truth? All the things she's been doing behind my back? Why keep bumping me to her? Be it online or not. Why keep tormenting me? I dun understand the current situation I'm in now, but I have faith that the flower will bloom and the whole story will unfold.
I thank you God for being with me...For not shuting me out.

a hApPy dAy???

A very good afternoon!
Just came back from work! Ahhh..Finally came back from work early! Went for a run up and down Fort Canning then had breakfast and here I am.
I just finished my highrise exercise, I was one of the control points. Not under much spotlight, but still in the Hot Zone! Syukur Alhamdullilah, although I made lots of mistakes, it was not brought up. I dun handle stess as well as i used to. Of course I was darn worried! *LOL*
Yesterday I was almost late for work! Woke up 0600 instead of the usual 0530. Luckly my mom woke me up. God bless her. She always pack for me lunch in the early morning despite the fact she's working. Unless she's really exhausted. And its not the previous day's food! Freshly cooked! Sometimes I feel that she packs as if I'm not coming back... The guys at work really love her cooking.
Where was i, oh, work..I finished one of my CP yesterday. A heavy load off my chest. I looked at the work done for my Rota for the whole month, Masya-Allah...Extra halal ah! This month extremely special, coz both holidays fall on my Rota therefore other Rota's highrise(including all the paper work) are diverted to my Rota. *LOL* wahhhh...So, I'm left with one last CP and 2 fire reports! Kewl huh! :)
After compliting it, (quite fast I would say) I decided to treat myself. I watch Armaggedon (the last portion on 5) It brought back memories. If I'm not wrong, I watched it in melbourne with my new aquaintance during an exchange program. Sob..Sob..Still a touching movie. (Sensitive New Age Guy aka SNAG) *LOL*
Yesterday night, or rather in the early mornings of about 0100, I had a man to man talked with my Encik. I was expressing what I felt. Somewhere along the line he mentioned dis....not to listen to others if ur choosing ur future partner, to see for urself her qualites and never ever look back at her past. Especially when you heard from someone. Coz in the end ur gonna be together with her, not them. "...biar pun dia seorang pelacur, kalau kau da angkat dier, kau da bersihkan kan die, terus kau kutuk dier, lebih baik jangan angkat dier in the first place!..." those words came like a hammer on a gong! When you do that to someone, itu da seolah-olah menzalimi batin seseorang. You give her hope then destroy it. He told me not to look back to the past. Never ever. That hit the right spot. All this while, I've been looking back at the past while with that special someone, NBH. We all make mistakes, but somehow i could never accept wat she did. If I could see myself in the mirror, I think I'll be walking with my head 180 deg backwards! *LOL* . Perhaps that was my failure n why she just gave up the beautiful 6 yrs of our lives. No matter how much I hate her right now, where ever u are now, I hope ur happier without me. And may the past never repeat.
I finished work feeling so good, so happy (after soooo long), but after reaching home, suddenly, ahhh...i forgot, she's gone. No one to come "home to". Its too peaceful. :) Right now listen to "one last" by taufik sent by Gee..Gosh.. I MISS HER! Finally i admit! I 've been burying myself with piles and piles of work and anger. Gosh...I MISS HER :) sob..sob..
Where ever you are, I hope ur taking good care of urself!

rEdEmPtIoN

Could this be it? An opportunity to redeem myself? A chance to make up for my sins?
I received information from a friend, Saff-Perdaus is going for a Tsunami Relief Project. And they are opened to all. Could this be it? But how am I suppose to go? My leaves, such short notice! Dear God, I leave the complicated matters to you, for if I'm the chosen one, all doors will be unlocked!

SeLf-rEfLeCtIoN

I've realise that I'm getting bitter these days. The more the truth unfolds, the more 'hasrat dendam' grows. I'm becoming someone whom I washed out a long time ago. There is a war in me between Good and Evil. Who will prevail? What will I become? I find it hard to concentrate in my prayers these days. Its bee so long since I last meditate. Dear God, what have become of me? What are your plans for me?

a MiNi gAtHeRiN aT sWeNsOnS

Had a mini gathering dis afternoon. For the first time, I'm late! *lol*. We expected more to come but each had other matters to attend to. So it was only me, mar, shirin and hunkamania Im! Shirin insisted for the treat..(bukan aku tak mahu! Yeah right! *grin*). Some of us brought photos of the past. We had quite a good laugh. After which, we went to causeway point for a walk. It was my first time in woodlands, since, oh well...I managed to get to know Im a little closer. Seems he and I are in the same boat. He sems pretty much stronger then me. Hang on IM! Its a pretty much an unexpected day. With last minute plans. :) peace out peepz

aQ, Eq, iQ???

Wahh..
Another super long day..(32hrs). Its amazing how God grant me the strength to keep working. But today I managed to get some naps along the way. Pretty much an okay day :)
Ended the day(work) with a seminar by some external organizations. Yup u guessed it, AQ, EQ and IQ. Honestly I slept through the first presentation on AQ. Masya-Allah tak boleh tahan. EQ and IQ on the other hand caught my attention! Alhamdullilah! I got lots of self reflection to do... Lots of techniques to try out.
I think my health is finally giving way. I ain't feeling too good. But I hafta finish 2 CPs by tomorrow! Insya-Allah..Insya-Allah! Dear God give me the strength and motivation!

a fIsHy wOrLd

I have a passion for fish keeping. The most challenging is to create the perfect environment for them. To create a balance ecological cycle. To me the most chanllenging is to keep marine fish. It ain't easy to replica or even to create a balanced ecological cycle. Your tank like like the hotel, and the creatures that u're gonna put inside is ur guest. If you dun create a suitable anvironment, nanti kalau da memudaratkan kehidupan2, siape nak gi jawap belakang hari nanti!
Many people have have this mentallity that when changing, water, no chlorine neutrilizer is needed. Table salt will do! Obviosly you will not notice any difference. But slowly it will eat up and eventually harm the living things. These days, the fishes from the shops, are breed in captivity. Therefore, the fishes are actually inclined to the rough treatment we give. If you don't believe, try keeping marine fishes, not those hardy fishes, try those sensitive fishes! You'll know what i mean. Even the discus (used to be the hardest fish to keep coz of its sensitivity) are pretty rugged now. My discus keep laying eggs. *LOL* Subbahanallah...
I once had a marine aquarium, but sad to say I gave up. I went overseas for awhile, came back, all is lost. I think I spent at least $1000+++. To start again? maybe..
My uncle once offered me to study and work at a marine environment. Ain't too sure whether if its something like underwater world or a marine biologist. Not in Singapore of course. Somewhere in one of the islands. I can't remember if its indon of phillipines. Something about one of the seven sister islands. *LOL*. I didn't give him an answer. It was tempting, but heavy at the heart to accept. Firstly, how am I to leave my parents here! Secondly I was attached and thirdly I have not completed my NS at that point of time.
Now to think of it, I'm at the crossroads myself. Drawn between the persue of computers, marine biologist or religion! Wow! a three way junction! Ya Allah, give me a sign..

a sLoW mOrNiNg

A very Good Morning to all!
Its been a slow start of the day. Never the less..But first a million thanks and apologies to my 2 sistaz..Thanks for being dare in my time of need..Syukran..Syukran..
i noticed something. Since the day, God took away something away from me, He not only gave me friends in return, but in this difficult time, somehow, my feline persian cat (greyish white), Sissy, is by my side almost all the time. I selom pat her, or talk to her or feed her. She loves to be by herself undisturb. A timid and reserve cat indeed. But recently she's been sleping on my bed, in my room, all the time. Wah..its so touching. Could she understand what i'm going through? When i was sleeping last night, halfway through the night i realise that she's at my feet. In the morning she was on the floor, looking at my face. Subbahanallah.. A miracle indeed.

wAt gOeS uP mUsT cOmE dOwN

Sigh..
It was suppose to be a good ending with nice chats with my old buddies..
BUt...sigh..
Found out my ex been 'flirting' behind my back even while we're togeher..To make things worst..I knoe him..
Ya Allah..gimmie the strengh to be patience..For I'm thinking of doing something..
Gosh..I just..i want her to suffer soo bad..Ya Allah.. Kasiahani hamba mu Ya Allah..
i'm still cool.. All this while i believe she was telling the truth..She is so used to lying to her parents from young that she can't tell the diff..how can one live with such conscience? I have problem lying even if its just a joke!!!
no wonder he gives me the viBes whenever he sees me..and to think that i did something wrong! kakakhakhakha
YA ALLAH...AKU PASRAH KPD MU YA ALLAH..AKU DAH TAK SANGGUP MELAWANI SEKSA INI..BUAT LAH APE YANG KAU HENDAKI..SESSUNGUHNYE AKU DAH TAK WUJUD..

kErJa KeRaS

gReEtInGs n sAlUtAtIonS!
Its been a crazy long long day for me! 36hrs and maybe more of work! "Halal" nye kerja! Yesterday had 2 confirmed fire. Da macam hero mane je kan! Climb over da parapet, look down 9 storeys! Gulp! Ini takde ampun! LOL! Both cases had to deploy platform ladder (something like a mobile gigantic ladder). I don't know what came over me! Everyone was 'ON' its like everyone's eyes glowed..i don't know where the strength and courage came from. You forget all your problems, your worries, your sorrow..your mind set is to rescue and supression!
I was burried with piles and piles of work yesterday! Only managed to clear a heap load just dis late afternoon. Wah! What a relieve...But no time to sit and celebrate! Got other piles to clear!
i wonder how my sistaz doin? They weren't in the peak of happiness last time I heard...
In summary its been quite a nice day despite the heavy workload. After a hard day's work, its nice to have something to look forward to..My friends! Even my Encik waited for me till I finished work..Only to find out he's on leave next duty! :( Haiizz..Booorriingg..

dEpReSsIoN

Assalammualaikum,
All of a sudden I'm inside out. The pain in my heart.. I just found my ex on friendster and BAM! Everything hit me hard. Questions pondering in my head, what have I done wrong? what have I done wrong? It hurts me still..
Its a lonely night tonight..I have not completed my soon due report..I just can't do anything right now. Dear God please give me the strength..
I think its best I start ironing my uniform...

a TrAgIc mAy

NBH( May u rest in peace!)...
Someone whom I pledged my love and my life to...We declared as one on the 28.04.1999. It was a sweet innocent love back then but it turned out to be something even more beautiful. As the years go by, I was more convinced that she is the one...To be my ethernal partner dunia akhirat...Someone who will carry on my generation...
As any other relationships, there are bound to be aruguments, misunderstandings,mis interpretation. Year in year out we endured and persevere to keep our relationship. Without fail, every year there is bound to be an enormous obsticle. At times, when I'm not strong enough to overcome it, she will do it..likewise when its her turn.
This is not the first time she disappeared into thin air, then out of the sudden, she wants to part. Time and again, I've endured and take it as if it was a test from above. Slowly, painfully I learnt to accept, swollowed,and somehow try to forgive. I'm amazed at myself for being able to accept someone who has 'menzalimi batinku'. Able to accept someone who has done something so dispicable..that I think no one in my shoes would...
She disappeared few months back when I needed her most. She was my only friend the world. Perhaps that was my biggest mistake. She came back..seek forgiveness and pledge never again.."Honesty and sincerity" on 23.10.2004 somewhere near the Esplanade. That was the last straw, after finding out what she has done, I still swollowed it and accepted her thinking that this was it. I finally got her for life!
But today, I'm sitting down infornt of my PC, pouring out my heart, wondering what went wrong. blaming myself for what has happened. She sms me yesterday, telling me that its over, that it was all a big mistake, that perhaps she was just clinging on to me while waiting for oppurtunity to strike. *LOL* Ya Allah..
The 6yrs are but dust now..I've got a whole drawer of her photos and I don't know what to do with it. Its funny how one can forget everthing and blame it on mistake. *LOL*
I know her too well, even better then herself. She is so easily terpengaruh dengan kata-kata orang. Seolah-olah tiada pendirian sendiri. Dengan sekelip mata azamnye boleh tukar. Mudah sekali terpengaruh dengan perihal dunia. Dalam kemarah semalam, I told her the truth about her..."Semangat lima minit"..*LOL*
This senerio I have gone through..Yup, most of our break-ups are but repetitions. I have not told my parents about this. I don't know how..Da last time I told my mom..She cried in secrecy seeing me tormented.. I have not spoken to my parents for weeks now. I just can't...
Perhaps all of these are but to show me that she is not strong enough, not meant for me.. Perhaps, perhaps not. 6 yrs of your life, is not something you would spent and then throw it away. Perhaps this is a sign from above to complete what I've stopped. To carry on my journey in the holy path..For once I almost choose the path of a Sufi..But...
Dalam sekelip mata, Istana impian ku telah musnah. Part of me wants to pray for her hapiness and Part of me wants to pray for her destruction..Astafirghllah
Aku bersyukur kepadaMu Ya Allah! Kerana kau tidak tinggal kan ku dalam kegelapan..Kau masih lapangkan dada ku..kau tidak ambil Iman ku seperti dahulu.
What is the difference between she leaving me then and now? Now I've found my long lost friends from Xishan! Not to mention my long lost crush! (Her strong persue in Islam has given me inspiration and earned my respect.) All this happened by chance prior to the disappearence of NBH. Come to think of it, God is by my side. Ya Allah, what are your plans for me?
I've found my long lost circle of friends. Not forgetting my new cyber friends. Not only that, but I've got 3 new sahabat! (i rarely use this word, to me its more than a best friend, more like family, someone u'll defend and fight for). Mar, Gee, Sue..not forgetting my disappearing Noraida (mane ko setan!) *LOL*. The more I relate to them, the more I realise that we're on the same boat, travelling in the same path towards the same destination except for the fact that some of us do not know that we're in the boat..kerana lalai..
I've yet to find sahabat lelaki. The closest one I can relate is my 'Encik' but he's more like a father to me. Wah..I got 3 fathers now! One original, the other is another 'Encik' when I was a trainee. *LOL* Perhaps one day Allah will kurnia kan a brother to me!
Perjalanan kite menuju Allah, penuh batasan, penuh dugaan, penuh pengalaman pahit dan manis. Dalam perjalanan itu difitnah, dipersendakan, dikutuk, dikhianati dan berbagai2 lagi. Tapi aku bersyukur kepada Kau Ya Allah kerana Kau bersama ku, kerana aku masih berdiri dengan Kalima "LAILLAH HAILLAULLAH".

BISMILLAAHIR RAHMAANIR RAHIM
RABBANAA HAB LANAA MIN AZWAAJINAA WA
DZURRIYYATINAA QURRATA A'YUNIN WAJ'ALNAA LIL MUTTAQIINA IMAAMA.
SURAH AL-FURQAN AYAT 72

Ya Allah, berikanlah dari isteri-isteri dan
zuriat-zuriat kami orang-orang yang menjadi idaman hati masyarakat, dan
jadikanlah kami menjadi ikutan bagi orang-orang yang taqwa.

- - - di pErsImpaNgaN jaLaN - - -

Another sajak that touched my heart n soul...
This one was written in light of the recent gathering...

-kHaS bUat pErteMuaN peLajaR meLAyU xIshaNiTes-

--

dI peRsiMpaNgaN kiTa beRteMu...

maHasIswa, aNgGota PerKhiDmaTaN nEgaRadaN taK luPa jUga baKaL guRu.

gEmuRuH raSanYa haTi......

uNtuK bErteMu seMuLa bUat pertaMa kaLi

naMuN,tErtaNya-taNya jaUh dI sUduT hatI

baGaimaNa puLa raKan-raKan

kU naNtI?

"feels as if we were at a junction by chance saw each other & celebrate

den its back to our separate journey

each to his/her own path..& iF wE maY

hoPE our paths may cross one day" -nazri-

bEnarKaH beGItu?

dI peRsiMpaNgaN kiTa beRteMu...

mEnjaMu seLeRa dI 'caHaYa'

mUsliMaH daN mUsliMin tIada bErsatU

naMun dI hatI

meMorI jElaS diIngaTi seMua...

tErhaPus seGaLa duKa daN laRa

MiNumaN haMpiR keMaraU meNunGgu

pUaN nORaida & eNciK nIzaM daN aDaM...

naMuN, peNantiAn teTaP meNjanJikaN pErtEmuaN

mEncIpta sUatU keNangaN zaMan siLam

dI peRsiMpaNgaN kiTa beRteMu...

pElbaGai raGaM paRa iNdiVidU

SurIaNi, nOraIda, aDiLaH sUdah maNtaP bEkErJa

maRiaH daN aIShaH baKaL mEngGeNggaM iJazaH

faUzia & marIaH baKaL gUru

kErtaS aKAdeMiK maSih sHirIn bUru

dI peRsiMpaNgaN kiTa beRteMu...

iMraN sUDah haMpiR ceRmiNaN nIzaM

heLmI & nIzaM saMa sAhaJa

beGItU jUGa haFIz, aDaM, naZrI daN juGa hIsYaM

bEkeRja & bErkhIDmaT paDa nEgaRa

"tHOugHt i wOuLd bE wEirD & sCarY

tO mEeT aFteR aLmosT 10 yEaRS oF seParaTiOn

wHo iS wHo

wHIcH iS wHIcH bUt uLtiMaTelY

aLL tHat dIdnT maTtEr mUch" -fauzia-

dI peRsiMpaNgaN kiTa beRteMu...

pErbeZaaN dIkEtePikaN

pElbaGai cEriTa ditiMbuLkaN

taWa daN sEnyUmaN saTu uTusaN

taNda syUkUr & raSa seNaNg dI haTi

saNtaPaN maKaNaN suNgGuH meNgeNyaNgkaN

bErsaMa LuaSnyA hIdanGaN mEmorI

"the guys paid for the food..

thanks! rajin2 lah bayarkan

..haha..

adam will be having a chalet

insya Allah.." -mariah-

we'LL sEe eaCh otHeR sOoN! (",)

fauzia

dOa bUat kEkAsIh

A friend posted dis few days back and it touched my soul...

"Ku harus belajar dari kesilapan ini...supaya aku tidak terus-terusan...mengusung noda...menggalas dosa..."


Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani…

Ya Allah.. Seandainya telah engkau catatkan,

Dia milikku tercipta buatku,

Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku,

Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami,

Agar kemesraan itu abadi,

Dan Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku Yg Maha Mengasihi,

Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini,

Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi,

Tetapi Ya Allah, Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan,

Dia bukan milikku,

Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku,

Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku,

Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan,

Serta Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku Yg Maha Mengerti,

Berikanlah aku kekuatan,

Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit,

Hilang bersama senja nan merah,

Agarku bisa bahagia,

Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya.

Dan Ya Allah Yg Tercinta,

Gantikanlah yang telah hilang,

Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah,

Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Pasrahkan lah aku dengan takdir Mu.

Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan,

Adalah yang terbaik buatku.

Kerana Engkau Maha Mengetahui,

Segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini.

Ya Allah. Cukuplah Engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku.

Di dunia dan di akhirat. Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini.

Jangan Engkau biarkan aku sendirian.

Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat.

Menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran.

Maka kurniakanlah aku, Seorang pasangan yang beriman.

Supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup.

Ke jalan yang Engkau redai.

Dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh dan solehah.
Ya Allah…..
Berikanlah kami kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat…..
Dan peliharalah kami dari azab api neraka.

Amin…Amin…Amin…ya Rabbal`alamin…

norhalizah

FiNaLLy oNLiNe

Greetings my fellow fenz!
Wah...Just got back from a 7 click run at East Coast Park with my 'Encik' and colleagues. I forgot how good it feels to run this far. Last I ran dis far was when I was in OBS..then again I think I clocked over 50 clicks that week! Wah..never felt so fit that time. Actually the main reason was that 2 of my colleagues applied for DART. Next month they will be going through a grueling 24 hrs selection, thats not even the course!. Therefore we were there to give support plus improve our fitness. Its mind over body..Its mind over body! *LOL*
Finally able to access the net! After having a series of bad incidents, after waking up only to find out I'm unable to access the net, gosh! I though it was a virus attack! After hours of attempting to find the course, finally I called Starhub. Only to find out that some cable was cut off over in Phillipines. Boy! was I relieved! It is really a stressful month for me..Losing someone sooo dearest, lots of work ups and downs.. :( Its like a never ending nightmare!
I think the run at ECP helped me alot. I feel destressed. I remember after the run, we all sat down by the beach talking nonsense, joking around. The sound of the waves...the presence of friends around...the wind blowing in my face...somehow I partially made peace with myself. :) Perhaps one day, I'll be able to forgive myself and make peace with myself and GOD. The day ended with lunch over at Bedok interchange followed by a bus trip home! And not to forget, being able to GO ONLINE!

FInaLLy SOme SLeeP

A very good morning!
Woke up ater 16 hours fo sleep! Exhausted? Yup! Had a strenuous day yesterday! Had a mojor exercise at 0100hrs. Boy was it exhaustive! My whole day went 'so-so' I would say. Except for the fact that I had a couple of bad moments whereby temper fluctuates. Sigh...
Well, let me see.. I momentarily lost my file which contains all my important document, such investigation reports, tnterviews, facts, etc etc..
After the mojor exercise, got questioned by my 'boss' about some f*$% up technological break down, and we're accused! Sigh..
After the excercise, I had short 5 min nap after which I had to attend to a few calls! After work, i had prepare some inportant documents to be sent to several important people! Along the way i was constantsly called by dis idiotic new chap who keeps calling me coz he couldn't find certain things on the vehicle! Gosh!!! In the end i got out of work at about 1300hrs. I'm still abit grumpy now...
I can't access my hotmail n gmail..Sigh..I'm begining to wonder what I've done. Its been a series of bad incidents..Sigh..
I still have a report to put up and a contigency plan by today...Still have other contigency plans to settle! Gosh...My PC is begining to give me problems..Dunnoe whether its a virus or someone has hacked to my PC..Sigh..
I think I wanna forget everything for now and watch tv or perhaps watch a movie..Its been awhile!
Peace out mY fReNz!

eX-xIsHaNiTeS rEuNioN 14052005

Ex-Xishanites reunion on 14052005 at Lestari coffee shop

Greetings and salutations!
2 days ago I had the most enjoyable time ever! I forgot how it felt like to have friends. The happy bunch we were about 10 odd years ago. Free from worries, free from stress. Just plain simple happiness, fun and mischieve. We sat there recalling the names trying to figure out who is who, who doing what... Some already married with kids... Some..only God knows!
All of us have changed, in little or many ways, good or bad. Yet somehow, deep down, we're the same old Xishanites! We exchanged jokes and laughter, forgetting others around us. Somehow, we're in our own world.
The ladies sat at one table while the guys sat another, to honour those whose faith are unquestionable. Nevertheless we all enjoyed ourselves tremondously! I was actually working that day, took a little time off..it was worth every bit!
Somehow I got a feeling that there won't be a next time. I don't know why.. But there is no harm in hoping! It feels as if we were at a junction by chance and accidently saw each other. So we celebrated! After that its back to our separate journey..to each his/her own path..perhaps hoping that our paths may cross one day.
Alas! All good things must come to an end.. Departing was hard as we do not know if its a "goodbye" or "farewell". None of us will know if there will be a gathering of this sort. We sum up the ending by taking photos...We were greeted by numourous thunders.. A sign from above? But could it mean? Heavy downpour accompanied with explosions came in a spilt second..Before you know it, we're on our separate paths...

the guys waiting for food

the ladies at their table

sPiRiTz uNloCk!

Greetings and salutations!
Finally! Out in the open! Where have I been? Perhaps worst then a mountain tortoise! Isolated from civilization, what have I done? Oh well, what's past is past. Its a new life after 6 years. Or will I turn back again? That is a question of faith. For I leave my future in the hands of THE ALL MIGHTY! But of course you must perservere, as the saying goes, "The mountain cannot go to Muhammad".
As this is my first Blog, and considering I'm soo out of touch with cyber space, bear with me with the simplicity of this Blog. Till then, I end my first entry with a gentle reminder to myself "PULL YOUSELF TOGETHER! YOUR WORK IS PILLING UP AND TIME IS RUNNING SHORT!"