2nd August 2005

"You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe,
deserve your love and affection."
-Buddha

A very good morning to all!
A warm welcome to August..welcome!
I woke up to a beautiful sunny morning. But as i get out of bed, da nak RIBUT! Its dark n windy now. Stylo! hahaha..

Let me see, on Sun I had half day, went to meet Boo, teman her buy her lil cousins' presents, got a racing car, a mickey mouse baby set (baju n stuff). I was sooo exhausted, dat remained silent through out. Even my eyes were red! hahaha.. N my bagpack, (apparently very light dat day) felt as if it was 20+ kg!! As per usual, send her all da way to her door step. I was greeted by her mom n great granny. *lol* I had no strength to even smile! Boo gave me some stuff she bought from JB de other day. *lol* Soo sweet, she bought me cd (lagu rawk GIWANGS!! POWER!!), keropok n kuih baulu! Why baulu? *lol* *wierd*. I got home den black out! Could hardly wake up da next day n was late fer sum meeting! Ayooo..hahaha..

After da fairly short meeting or shall i say briefing, i decided to surprise boo, felt kinda bad yesterday. So I decided to buy breakfast n drag her out of bed. *lol* She was shocked that I was on da way. Of course her Great granny was home. After breakfast, we went to tampines. Din't know where to go actually.

We had our first argument. (i say first coz i felt anger) Thank God I din't give up n I manage to contain my anger. Had a pep talk wif her. By then I had to be extra careful as not to hurt both our feelings further. Filtered my tone n thoughts b4 it turns to speech like TWICE! Then she did the most amazing thing! She REPLIED! She admit wat she did, n she explained her self! THANK GOD dare was COMMUNICATION! its a first time dis happens to me. In fact it was really touching.

Went to da movies while waiting fer mas! Watched STEALTH..POWER! Not bad..Dunno if boo was cut out fer all dis sci fic stuff..Finally met mas at banquet simei..Boo was all stressed up. I took it lighly, when i asked she said she was hungry..hmmm...

Den Mas arrived, everything was KECOH!! I guess she a catalyst fer us. Makin things go spontaneous, and........revealing secrets!! Boo broke down and started to blabber all her probs! Ayooo..y did u tell me.. Guess its tougher bein de only child then it seems.

Now i'm pretty much lost. I dun know wat to blog..I remember she FiNalLy say da 3 words but i just cant respond! I can barely hold her hands dese days. Its like guilt all filling up! Where is my heart? Has it not been return to me? *lost*