"When the heart has acquired stillness, it will look upon the heights and depths of knowledge, and the intellect, once quieted, will be given to hear wonderful things from God."
-Hesychios the Martyr
-Hesychios the Martyr
If I were to be in POWER, Today I'd declare a PUBLIC HOLIDAY!
Today is da SHIITIEST DAY! Like I woke up on de wrong side of ma bed! Actully da sofa. Slept outside..
I havin dis loneiness, sad kinda worrysome feeling. Like da time when i was due for NS..Shitty feeling. Wats worst, my instructor almost got FUCKED by me! HE WAS ALREADY HAVIN SOME PROBLEMS AT HOME N ALL!! N ITS LIKE HE'S TAKING IT OUT ON ME!!!FUCKER!!
LUCKILY I"M DA TYPE DAt like to give in..sighhh..
I WAS REALLY BOILING..
but thank God I could control it..Sigh..
Fucked up day I'd say.. Tomorrow's IPPT..n I din make any preparations..Sigh..Wow! Using da F word..hahaha..
Kept quiet da whole day. Guess everythings bottled up.
This mth macam2 dugaan. Financially, mentally, spiritually..SIgh..So many unforseen circumstances occured. Oh dear God..
Even yesterday my outin wif ehem wasn't really an enjoyable one. I wasn't present mentally n spiritually i guess. Its like I somewhere else. Even today. I maybe physically present but its like my thoughts n vision is clouded..unable to focus..Ayoo..Sighh..
I'm gonna try to seen if playing game helps..But i doubt so..sigh..
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