iTs bEeN AwHiLe

Its been while since I last bloged..
Firstly to my circle of friends, Thank you sooo much fer ya concern..I'm touched. I wanna apologize to all of ya if i caused any trouble..
I've been avoiding everything, away from internet, friends, almost everything except work i suppose. Y? I ain't too sure myself. The death of a friend made things even more worst. Perhaps because nobody informed me of his death. It ain't a big deal but it made me feel how important a friend i am..hahaha..Its kinda pointless to go fer his kenduri n meet up all da faces..I think i just do it from home..
Since da disappearence of a special someone, I've been like a lost child. Its den that I found my old friends n made some new friends n even got a cyber sis! *lol*
Life's taken a pretty sudden shift last week. I met someone new n dis person is changing my perspective by accident. I began to travel n literally wander from places to places..In CBD, Town, Chinatown...all da way to ECP..The journey is somehow causing me to change..For the better I suppose..Believe it or not, I've been to soo many diff eating places..Some of them i visited like 5 yrs ago? hahaha..Its true when i was wif my Ex we rarely venture out. I haf no idea y. I wanted to but it was just soo 'heavy'.
The best part of my adventure dis week, athough we venture here n dare, this person never forget to remind me to pray! Which is y i makes dis journey a spiritual one. I've been to a few new mosque that i never visited or visited ages ago!
Its true dese days, i dun wanna be at home, not even online..I can't even pray wif serenity at home. Perhaps being here brings too much memories subconsciencely...I dun remember any by sumhow i can feel it..
I'm still at da crossroads, unable to make decisions. Hopefully God will show me the way.
Work is piling up n its gonna be a very very busy month of july..I just hope he'll give me the strength to go on..It ain't a matter of work load but the 'semangat' to do it..Lately i'm like half spirited..
Dares like a whirlpool of feelings in me..A mixture of sooo many feelings even guilt..
I guess dares a knocking in my door n i'm scared to answer it!
hahaha..
Anyways i'm tuning in to Greenday..i forgot how i love to listen to dis kinda songs.. *grin*