cOuNtIn dOwN dA dAyz!

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Oh my GOD! Oh mY gOD!!!
Counting the number of days...When o when will it come! Cant you just fast forward time n get it over n done with! Excitement equates decision making which in turn leads to HEADACHE!!!

Leave it for time to decide. Wow, r we getting money again in July or smtg? Sounds like, take some n give more if u noe wat i mean! I've been a good boy staying at home doing NOTHING!!! Bored man! Still haven watch spidy~darlin's been busy lah...Dese days rarely catch movies..

I'm on leave today, and i woke up da same time as i normally do. I think its my biological clock dats oredi set. Tick, tock, tick, tock, peek a boo! Wakey, Wakey! As you can see, i'm blogging utter rubish, den again who ask you to read! haha..

Oh yah, forgot abt da upcoming cameron highland trip coming soon. Yupz another ride up trip to cameron. I think after dat, dare will be a trip to genting + KL and a trip to PEnang! Sheezz..temting as it is, i haf to wait dis mth end den decide!
Wat a biarch..(sshhss..nanti ade org terase!!)

Haha! i'm honored that u got access to my blog n actually read my rumblings! Well, here r sum facts that i think u got it wrong:
FACTS:
1) I've gotten over u lah...kwang..kwang..kwang
2) I wasnt disrespecting ur parents, just dat when i saw em, it was sad da way dey look at me, makes me wonder wat poison u haf intoxicated..
3) I was pretty much a peaceful man till da day we met wif ur so called husband, u gave me da attitude dat brought back something frm da past dat i've long forgotten..
4) and yes, i'm attach thank you very da much kepo...

A small tribute to well, u noe...Speaking of which (back to blogging) how do you ppl find frenz who date/steal/court frenz gf/bf? Fer some, its hard to accept but fer others, wat da hell, upz ur hole, its ur conscience!
No, i'm not intending this to anyone, serious..i encountered 3 incidents dat made me think:

1) BF taken frm best fren of the same circle of frenz. best thing is dat she endures, swallow her pride n pretend nothing happens. I suppose becoz of her broken heart, she's still single n too hurt to find a new. My respects fer her courage n dignity!

2) fren of a close fren of the circle courts fren's fiance! Wats dat all abt!? They all say da same thing, just frenz, but as dey say, frenz pun ada batas, correcto? Pity him seeing him fight fer his relationship..

3) A close personal comrade of mine, lost his fiance to his best fren, our cirlce of frenz..Dat mother *beeepp* (mothers day dok, tak baik) has done it b4, to most of our frenz n now..after doin it to my comrade before, he strikes again! But of coz, dis time he won..Lucky biarch! hahaha

I'm a strong believer or karma and destiny. Its up to the individual who he/she can date. One can just admit dat all dose were puppy love or wat so eva, but y deny to urself? Wounds will heal but scars will not, experience u will gain. I agree dat peace is always da best option. Sumtimes, ppl will swallow their pride n feelings just to prevent war! I believe thats not right. You shld stand fer wat u belive in.
Lets take senerio no 3, we all gew up together, basically we're childhood frenz, God noes wat u've done. Most of my frenz were shocked n angry wif him, but fer me, i believe dat he's got da rite to be with her but my anger lies with dese 3 point:
1) Has he got anything to do wif the break up during the crisis?
2) He could haf at least talk things out first wif my comrade n be a gentleman, declare his feelings
3) He shld haf waited fer awhile b4 striking (give sum respect), it only shows dat all dis was pre-planned

Life can be a biarch..even worst if the guy who left u fer another gerl, is trying to make a come back discretely! Wow! dat has got to hurt!

Dats enough blabbering fer da day. Just my 2cent worth!
Cheerz to all, enjoy ur weekends n HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

mAy dAy!

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Labour day was greeted by families by da beach havin a picnic. This time round was quite diff. Not all were able to be present but the sense of fun and tranquility was undeniably dare!
After breaking "camp" sometime late evening, we all decided to go to expo fer this indon exibition. There, i met my gf n her family, n aslo my ex parentz! Boy were they arrogant, din even want to look me in da face! Wat i ever do to them? Its not like i betrayed their daughter or something..ItS their daughter who's da biarch! I wonder wat lies haf she told em. Oh well, I'm a strong believer of karma...as da song goes, "wat goes ard comes ard..."

Da day ended of with a late dinner at a coffee shop in the northern side..All in all the day was a good one. Family bonding!
nitez to all!

2007 Oredi?

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Greetings everyone!
HAPPY SUPER DUPER BELATED NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!
So wats my new yr resolution? Erm, no idea! Though I aspire to travel da dist on my 2 wheeler!

What mischiefs haf i been up to? Nothing serious, except i sold my bikes, bought a car den bought a 400cc bike and now tempted to buy class 2 bike! Crazy kan? like got lotsa money!
I've been searching high n low, find out what i like doin, i keep arowana, cats, birds, tried cycling, gaming, etc, seems like it all aint me. Den i finally realise smtg, all this while, under my nose, my passion is with bikes, be it machine, biking-touring to trailing to track. Dares this burning desire to be the best, to be a somebody. Looking at the market, aint much demand. hahaha..
No i'm not those kinda rempit racer type. I'm more of the science part and of course, i aspire to perfect my handling in general/emergency/evasive skills..

So how passionate am i? This may seem a crazy goal fer sum, but one day, i want to travel da dist all by myself. Like a journey to find oneself. When i say dist, i dun mean dose 'kucing kurab' places, i'm talking abt beyond thailand. Heard of others reaching Burma, cambodia etc. Kinda kewl don't u think?

Guess wat, I met my ex gf and her so called declared husband! Da 6yrs relationship dat gone sour...Wat ever for? To transfer starhub accounts. The darn irony was dat it seems as if i was signing divorce papers! Best part, when i wrote da date down, i realise it could haf been our 8th anniversary! Sadist rite? Of all days..I still feel she's a sadist biarch..I think she got a few screw loose in her brain..hahaha

Enough of my boring past, waste my 6 yrs+++
I been transfered out to another station as of 1st jan 07. As a new appointed specialist..its was tough settling in. da thought of transfering out was constantly echoing in my mind...I'm just trying to survive now. i dun really knoe wat to do with my life. Biking seems to be an alternative to keep my morale high up and forget abt werk n life.

i think i rambled enough, time fer me to knock off.

Peace upon u!

Rainy Season?

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Assalammualaikum my brothers and sisters!
Greetings to all of you out there!

Its been a super long time since my last confessions! muahahaha!
Its my PC lah, Crashed again. Cant be bothered anymore. Currently enjoying da sun at my cuzz crib. Life has taken through unexpected journey through narrow streams. Its wierd how God test his subjects. WHen you think all hope is gone, then there's light!

I sold off my KTM after i torn my ligament. hahah..i miss trailing. What happen after dat, got myself a 4 wheeler! crazy right? I dunno wat went through my head when i got it except to bring happiness to my family n those ard me. Indeed it has.

What heppen to dat small bike of mine dat brought me to melacca? hahaha..well, lets just say, i got an itchy hand! hehehe..

The journey to enlightenment aint an easy one. Searching yourself aint an easy thing to do. At times you doubt your own abilities..and ask WHY?

People are suffering ard da world and you ask yourself wat can u do to ease the pain. "Bencana Alam telah tiba, akan datang mungkin lebih dashat. Marilah kita berdoa sama2 agar semua selamat."

Adventures n Misadventures

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Greetings everyone!
I'm the type of person who lives by da day. Mostly forgets events almost instantly unless it sumhow has a significant impact. Even so, these memories will be shadows in an instant. Kind of what you call "cloudy". Which is why i like to keep photos (stangely i dun really like to take photos of myself), i like da surprise/shocking feelin as i brouse through the photos, n memories flashes in my mind! Things i did but forgoten. People whom i met. Places where i've been.

So today i'd like to share with the world wat a small adventure i had and a misadventure that lead to my injury!
Few mths back, after getting my class 2a license i was tempted to upgrade my bike but the thought of waiting fer class 2 was more practical at that point of time. I wasn't craving for speed nor touring. I wanted to do smtg diff frm da guys. i wanted to learn in depth true control and manuveres on 2wheels. Coincidentally a fren was letting go his KTM LC4, a 400cc 4 stroker also known as thumper, mean machine with da weight of a horse!! This old bird is more den 10 yrs old but flies like vrrrrroooommmmm....hehehe

So i told da guy i'll get ur bike only if ur willing to teach me to trail!!! He's dwn grading to a more powerful evil 250cc 2-stroker. Dats when da adventure began! Scray as it is, da height, da weight da POWER da SOUND!!! Wicked!!!

I still remember da 1st trip to plentong, at jb, GOSH HOW MANY TIMES I FELL!! not to mention HARD!!! Further to da spice it was raining! imagine da slipperyness!!
Painful as it is, its worth it! I got home my whole body aches like f%$&!!! I couldnt move wifout feelin da pain!!

Fer those who haf no idea wat nonsense i'm tokin abt, i took up trailin in da forest or rather plantation sumwhere in jb. Not by foot but on dirt wheels! Basically i learnt to handle da bike on difficult n slippery situations..untill...my last trip, on da way to kota tinggi via dirt, i crashed hard while evading from my friend! My right foot sumhow got stuck to da dirt while flyin off. It was over den. I was in agony. I noe it aint a fracture coz i had some b4..I got myself together n tighten my boots to minimise da pain.

I got hm safely, opened my boots, to my surprise, my foot doubled its size right before my eyes! In my heart, "mati..mati..mati.."hahaha..Got to da poly, den to da hospital..bla..bla..bla..i got a ligament tear! DEY WANTED TO PUT SREWS IN MY FOOT!! So, i disappeared! hehehe..Currently learnin to adapt to my new foot. On n off it hurts lah.. Takdir ;)

Hear are sum of the photos..enjoy



  

  

  

  




  

  

Rise from the ashes!

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Peace upon all of u!

Its been like wat? mths? so much has happened since my PC crashed. Lookin back i dun even noe where to begin! Adventures i had and not to forget da mis-adventures as well dat landed me wif dis permenant injury..Dis coming Sept is gonna be super darn busy...As da song goes, "..wake me up when sept ends!" i cant wait fer it to pass! Looking out da window now, dark clouds hoverin in fast. Its been a hot mth but dis kind of darkness is kinda scary. Reminds me of the show "Twister". Freaky. Perhaps its a gentle reminder dat da end is near! =)

Till i inspire to blog again, take good care of urself. May God be Wif us always.

rEcOvery fRom mElAccA tRip

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Good afternoon readers! wOw! I still cant get over da fact dat i rode dat far! Right now, i'm in a delima, as to wheather or not to get a scrambler..hehehe..

Just imagine, to go trailin in da jungle! hhehehe...a new milestone!

so much fer dat..will be busy very soon. Werk stuff..Let me rephrase, SupEr duPER pAck till october! =(

Will be uploadin my very first photo album soon! hehehe..saty tune!

bAcK fRoM MeLaCcA!!

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

I mAdE It!!! mY dReAMs cAmE tRuE!!! a 487 km jOurnEy fRom mY cRib To mELaCcA n bAcK! bEsT sTill ON MY X1!!! A 110cc BIKE!!!

dA jOurNey bEgAn onN 280506 aT abT 0830. wE wErE sUpPoSe tO meEt uP aT aBt 0730 bUt i gOt cAuGhT uP wIf sMtG aT wErK. yUpz wEnT dArE aFtEr wErK(24hRs) wIf LeSs sLeEp!!!

wE sTarTeD dA tRiP wIf bReAkfAsT aT JB wHiCh i tReAtEd cOz i wAs lAtE! hEhEhE
da CrUsInG sPeEd wAS abt 140km/h oN mY sPeeDo, on a bigGer bIkE iT wIll bE ABt 100-110km\h! vErY sLoW sIA!
hEhEhE..

i dUnNo wAt To bLog Abt, cOz picTurEs tElls a tHoUsAnd wOrDs..buT mY cAmErA bRokE dOwN hAlF wAy! =(

tAkE cArE!
eNjOy dA pHotOs..

mElAcCa??

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

lIfE'S fUll oF uPs n dOwNs..sUmtImeS..fUll oF sHit!! hAhAhA...

dIs wEeKeNd oUt tO mElAcCa fEr a SupEr sHorT gEt aWAy..oN MY tWO WhEeLs!!!
eXicItIng..hEhEhE..lIke fEr oNcE cAn rEallY rUn aWAy fRm eVeRYthIn aNd fOrgEt eVeRytHin...lIke a sPeCiaL sElF tReAt! tO cElEbRatE mYsElfF oN cErTaIn acCoMplIsHmEnT dAt amAzE mYsElF..wOrK oF gOd sUm mIgHt sAy..nOw oFf tO sLeEp iN dIs lAtE aFtErNoOn..lAtEr gOtTa pRePaRE mY bIkE fEr dA tRiP...
sO lOoKiN fOrWaRd tO iT!!!

rIdErS nIgHt'S oUt

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

gOod mOooRin! fEw hRs TimE ofF tO wErK!! sIoW lIaO! hEhEhE..wEnt to MeEt uP dA gIn gANg n wEnT to Al AmIn oPp bEaUtY WorLd..kewl..gOt oFfER..sUm1 wAnnA lEt Go KTM LC4! 400 Cc!! aNd iTs CheAp! fUyOO!! tEmpTin! hEhEhE..

aSk hIm tO aSk fEr mE!! hEhEhE..aFtER wHiCh WenT to Da oLd mAnsIoN At hIll vIew..crEepY lIkE cRaZY bUt tOO bAd lOckEd..kWanG3...mUst sEarCh fEr Da sTorY bEhInD iT..aNyOnE oUt dArE nOeS????

SeLf-trEaT

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

hAd mY iPpt eArLy dIs mOrn..dIn rEaLLy pReParEd, aS uSuAl nEvER a GoLd mEdAlIsT..bUt sOoN InsYa-AllAh...hEhE..At leAst cLeAreD!!!
pREtTy mUcH oN dA nEt aFter iPpT...dEn iN dA eVe, DEcIdEd tO cAtCh A mOvIe...MI3!!! oF cOz aLonE..sElF tReAt kAte..gOt AnnOyIn kIdS ArD...gRrRR..hAf wAy bOdY wAs tIrEd sIa...gIvIn uP..

dA sHoW?
dArN pOwERRRR~~dIs tIme gOt mUsHy2 sTuFf =( lOvIng2 sToRy eNdEd iN A gD wAy..hEhEhE...

rEmInDs mE oF mY iMaGiNAtIoN bEcOmIn An iNtELLigEncE aGEnT! lol

lOvE n aLL iTs bULL

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

yEaH...LoVE suckS..gUEss i mUsT bE curSed..rElAtiOnsHipS r a faIlUrE tO mE...jUst my lucK
..wIf rElAtIoNsHiP cOmEs lOvE, dEn jElOuSy, dEn iNsEcUrItY, nOt tO mEntiOn aLL dA dIsApPoInMeNtS..aLL dA hOpEs..aLL dA dReAms..nOt tO mEnTiOn dA mIsSeS, dA aNger..aLL dA nEgAtIvIty aNd pOsivItY of lOvE..I gUesS it cOmEs in A pAcKaGe..lOvE, sIgH..

sUmtImEs dUn U fEeL lIkE gIvIn uP..sO sAD So SaD..NOThIn LaSt 4EvA..oF cOuRsE u cAnT oBsTrUCt dA peRsOn fRm dOin wAt IT wAntS..lEArN iT dA hArD wAy..jUsT sWoLLoW iT aNd sOoNeR or lAtEr mY hEArT 'LL fAiL..gUes i'll dO wAt i dO bESt......yUp u gUesS iT, diSaPpeAr..nO nOt rUnNiN AwAy, jUsT bEiN wIf oNeSelF, hOpEfullY tO fInD pEACE..peRhAps, i'll aWakEn wHen i'M fOuNd AgAiN..eLsE..........

wAt A dIsApPoInTmEnT...

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Haf u ever loved someone dearly dat u decided to stay away? Just to prevent things frm getting worst or becoz ur disappointed of smtg..Well, in life shits happens..you cant predict it accurately at times. N Sometimes u make wrong conter measures and things goes wrong!

Its bad enough dat sum1 dun really noe who u r, or wat ur intentions r, or wat u do for cryin out loud!
DUN JUDGE OR PASS UNECESSARY REMARKS DAT U ASSUME! ASSUMTIONS ARE THE MOTHER OF ALL FUCK UPS!
Wats worst dis person spoke in btw the lines! Y cant dey just be direct..HaH! I guess wat annoied most is wen dis person said how easy my job is..hahaha..bla..bla..bla..something abt busy n all sort of shit lah..mostly in btw da lines..Old ppl..wat dey noe..always judging by its cover. of coz bein me, i could haf created a scene but..just smiled all da way..so disappointing..so nonsense..
Wat can i say..just do wat i do best..disappear!

Long time no see!

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Greetings and salutations!
Wow! Been a really long time. Just got my pc formatted recently. Alot has happen since my last entry. Impossible to summarise i suppose.
My persian cat almost died, had some sort of uterus infection. She was bleedin as if having mensus fer like 2weeks! Fortunately took her to the vet in the nick of time. Has a surgery and removed it. basically had to spay her.
I guess dats one of the shockin news..hehehe
Besides dat, I upgraded my license..haha..ermm..
Currently i'm on course fer like 3 weeks or so. yupz the final stage of my course i suppose. Wait up fer da headlines dis coming jun or july! Hopefully i'll be all over the news! ;) *yeah rite*

I'm cutting down of my outside activities. Seems like i've neglecting those close to me and even myself perhaps...Not enough time to even reflect on myself. Now dat i got the chance, i dun even know how to start.

had a demoralising incident de other day at werk. But...classified stuff..hahaha.. Go buy strait times and read fer urself..

By da way my cuzz getting engage tomorrow! N my fren getting married. wats de odds of dat?

kwang..kwang..kwang...
Take care readers!

27th March 2006

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Wanderin ard central s'pore all alone seems kinda aimless, but it helps me destress. It sumhow reflects the emptiness and the loneliness inside me. Things I've yet to understand. Riding dese days aint da same..Now, paying particular attention to road names and my sense of direction. It aint easy but i haf to put in effort. Now dat i'm turnin out alone.

Went to watch Kallang Race dis morn rite after werk wif my cuzz. WOW! Could it be me next?

25th February 2006

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

All seems outta place but I'm sure when da dust settles da purpose is revealed! A desire to study has engulfed my heart but da path is too smoky to see. noting is acertain at dis moment as da new breed of specialist is underway. Whether or not it will be established is another question. If it does..How dangerous is it? No insurance can cover it. If da threat so happens, we haf but only one chance of survival. Y? Y do we do dis? The ans is very much simple. Fer our family, fer our loved ones, fer our frenz fer our nation. If we were to go, we go knowing we made a difference. We are but only humans. Forgive us my frenz forgive us God. Remember us always, not as heros, but as frenz who gave our lives so dat u may haf a better one.

24th February 2006

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory".

Finally! Graduated from course!
Wow! How time flies.. Now its back to stn life =( A wholes mth of werk is waitin fer me...hmmm..
Nothing much to blog abt today. Probably coz i'm too tired i suppose..
take care..

23rd February 2006

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

FINALLY!!
I JUST FINISHED MY FINAL EXERCISE!!! It was super HOT and tiring! We had 3 consecutive incidents to wrap up our course! At the end of it, he told us our results, comprising of our theory, hands on and exercise!

I cant believe it. So young in da force and now i'm a specialist. Alhamdullilah Syukur...My body is aching like hell. Did i mention i just got home? hahaha..at abt 2100hrs!! We waited quite sum time fer our dorm key. dis dimwit returned da key wifout anyone's knowledge! F*&%! lol..

Msg boo i passed but..hmmm..disappointing reply. Perhaps she's too happy out wif her frenz..Wateva..

Tomorrow's my graduation or rather my passin out. Told my mom to sow on da velcrow fer my tag..hehe..Maybe i should go out and celebrate..álthough i'm kinda super exhausted..Syukur Alhamdullilah..

22nd February 2006

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Dey say time heals all wounds. but can one really forgive and forget? or perhaps forgive and remember? Even worst..Forget but never forgive!! how r u gonna ans in ur after life? Sum ppl uses anger to overcome dis feelin. Sum uses sorrow to flood it..Sum would even go to the extend of vengence! God forgive us all...

When a person is all forgivin and patience up to the brink, dun be surprise da fact dat u haf lost ur wild cards! no more room fer forgiveness. hehehe..Wow.. Which is y trust is the up most of importance. To receive one's trust is like holdin his/her life in ur hands. Its a living thing! To break it is to kill it. It can be as simple as 'meeting time' or as deep as ur secrets. Another word fer it, 'amanah'. Dis one word tells a million. its weightage in de afterlife is far too great fer one to bear. how many promises haf u broken?

i had quite a hot tiresome day. I'll bet tomorrow'll be worst. Found out a few of my frens fail their theory. Which is y i'm goin to help dem in a min or so. Its also a gd way to recap watever i've learnt. after all, knowledge is POWER!
I'm not sure how i'll fair in my overall performance. Insya-Allah.

Fer those who is lost to wat i'm goin through..Actually i've been selected to be part of the new breed of specialist. in order to be one i'm currenly bein trained to be a HazMat specialist. Wat it means? Harzardous Materials..bla..Bla.Bla..hehehe..Dats all fer now. i dun like to blaber abt my werk life in cyber world. addious!

21st February 2006

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

Good evening.
I just got home from quite a travel ard singapore! Actually after my coz from Jalan Bahar all da way to CCK den upper srangoon den back to boon keng den to bencoolen makan place den hm! LoL..along da way my fren's bike ran outta fuel, luckly i spotted him..Hehehe..

My morning started off wif a surprise sms from my ex. Asking fer my erm or rather our previous bike's plate no. Apparently sum1 bought it n its sumwhere near her place..
I ask her how she was and when's she's gonna settle down. And guess wat! Sumwhere in 2008! Not de ans i hoped fer..*grins* I told her, "He must be sum1 special to haf opened ur heart to marriage." And she replied "He inspires me".
I wonder in my past did i ever not be da perfect person..I know towrds de end i became some1 super negative. A bitter person i suppose. I wonder how i am now..I mean towards boo. At times i haf been cold towards her. But to tell ya da truth. i think dats only 1%! hehehe..I always get angry especially on da road whenever i manouve in traffic and suddenly she moves or da things she carries causes da bike to move and i hafta take evasive action. Dis kinda things, really scares da shit out of me. Sumtime i feel like askin her to ride and i sit behind. haha..small issue u think? be in my shoe! I'm surprise dat ms ex remembers my/our bike no. We had a near death exp on dat bike. DAT I DUN WANNA RE-LIVE IT AGAIN!!! ( boo...scary u knoe..)And i remember crashing several times out of anger fer her. haha..how stupid back den. how Naive i was.
Memories..memories..Sweet Memories. How it hurts..How it tears you. "We once thought we were made fer each other but in the end we were just stepping stones" dis is wat i msg her.."It would be an honour to attend ur wedding even though i'm not the one sitting beside you" sumwat da final sms. Sooner or later, she'll be terminating her lines n disappear.
I guess dis is the key word or rather the key event i've been waitin 4. The phrase or rather the action dat states dat dare is no more hope, no more room left. Time to move one. Dun get me wrong, i haf moved on, just dat at times...hahaha..hope..hope, false hope. Sumtimes to just wanna make sre its really over..
To heal one's heart you hafta forgive. Especially urself. I've been blaming myslef fer da past yrs dat has gone by. Only God knows. So much so dat now i dun recognize happiness and even love ..dat is right in front of me. My heart has close. God forgive me. only HE knows how much tears my darlin has shed while knocking da doors to my heart.
Everyone's ard me is getting engagged or plan fer marriage. Even my ex. but i'm nowhere dare. i used to but..At times i just feel dat i'll be rather happy bein alone. Sumwat like punishin myself..Kate rg dulu2, bawa diri..I know a few who are like dat. Too heart broken til dey grow old alone. I dun wanna be like dat either.
I dun think so i'm ready fer marriage even boo if i may say so myself. Too much responsibility. i'm da eldest and my responsibilty falls on my parents and siblings coz i'm de only son. boo's de ONLY CHILD! So question is, where do my responsibilties fall? Its too scary to think of. Dats not de only issue. Dare are lots of others. Wat abt my goals or ambitions? Haha..scary..

BOo's planin to go overseas wif her gerlfrens and i'm like...erm..sigh..I'm not saying she cant go, neither i'm sayin she can go..hmmm..just in da middle of nowhere. I dun wanna stress myself any further. So many things coming up. i'm just glad i cleared my exam. just waiting fer da results. While waitin, i gt field ex and final ex coming up da next few days. Den sun back to werk wif HIGHRISE ex!! Sigh...

Boo was sweet yesterday tryin to cheer me up or rather pujuk. hehehe.. I actully zonked da min i lay me head on da bed. She called and started yecking abt overseas and dis and dat...Sum how half asleep i got pissed off! Who wouldn't! Da tought of gals goin overseas to sum 3rd world country bla..bla..bla..especially half asleep, or rather 3/4 asleep..ayooo...

Sumtimes i do miss her..maybe coz of our werkin schedule. it spells out NO TIME! hahaha..I tink most of da time i'm just too afraid to commit. Love is a scary thing..It poisonous..and contageous! SAY NO TO LOVE!!! YES TO SEX!!! Den again wat is SEx witout Love? Den wat abt LoVE withOut SEX??? hahahahahahaha... Dun worry ladies and gentleman, i'm not a horny sex maniac..just a ssleepy guy wif a corny joke..Addios amigoes!!!