It still hurts?

"Men must be strong enough to know when he is weak, brave enough to encounter fear, dignified and having moral courage in honest defeat, humble and gentle in victory"

*BAM*! Smtg i tot I gotten awy just hit me hard again! Sigh..Guess all dese while its been kept in da dark. "Its time to move on.." Dis is wat i'm tellin myself..Over n Over again..Y do i get butterflies when i saw it? Y does it seems my heart skip a beat or 2..
It hurts seein some1 happier in da hands of another. Wat i fail to accomplish seems to be a walk in da park fer another.

Lookin at da bigger picture, i got my second chance. To make some1 happier. To accomplish smtg i couldn't. But.. It aint da same it just hurts not matter wat. Though i've hurt her inttentionally or not but..

Guess i am sumhow still in da dark ages. But thank God, she is da light..Perhaps da light of my life but i just dun know it yet. Dey say time heals all wounds..Time is healling my wounds, hopefully time will also open up my heart to love again da way i did once upon a time..

I pray dat my past found wat she has been looking fer...May she be happy always..

I pray dat my present, if she is da one, my light, my other half, i pray for her happiness, health and patience. If we are meant to be, may God open up our hearts and bless our love fer all ethernity.. If we are meant to be.. If we are meant to be..

Some1 once told me, wat i'm doin is actually punishin myself..n da way i do it, its too deep. I din realise all dis n i cant denied it either. Am i? Oh my.. But y all dis? Its beyond my understandin.. hopefully one day HE will show me da truth..